There was a time, not so long ago, when I looked at the title of this blog and thought it funny that I really wasn't talking about the cancer thing all that much. I guess I got into a safe place and stopped letting it run my life. I will be looking for that place again it seems.
Today I learned that the cancer wasn't completely removed and that I am back to square one but on a much more mangled square. I am having another colposcopy on the 13th of October and then another "procedure" at some point in the future.
How do I feel? Deflated. Bored with this. Done. Really pissed off. Futile. Stuck in a rut.
I have good friends and a better outlook than I did the first time around. I have a better idea of what to expect and the questions to ask. This is not the end. Oh no. It is the beginning again.
greetings, human!
9 years ago
2 comments:
I wasn't there the first time around but know that I will be here for you this time around. I'm glad you have the positive outlook, and you've got plenty of good friends who love you and are here for you. Call me soon, and call me anytime you need anything.
That was a really sweet comment from the reverend, so I second it. Why don't you just move in with us, and I'll make you some chicken soup everyday and tuck you in upstairs.
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