Break-up Cat?

It needs to be said that I might be a little sad these days, and I really want to believe that's it's some kind of post-birthday/post-Valentine's Day thing that will run its course and be done. Now, that being said, how long will it last?

The boyfriend seems so disconnected, the kid seems so disconnected, and I seem interested in renewing connections, but... no one seems interested back.

At a coffee shop right now and have been doing a little work. He's sitting across from me and I know that I love him, but WHYYYYYYY does he feel so distant? He doesn't tell me good night, he doesn't tell me good morning, and he doesn't seem to care when something is going on.

Lately all I see are these people who seem to have it so much better than me. I can't tell him that. He would just be mad. He won't let me help him with anything.

I am trying to look back in at me. I am trying to put myself first. Trying to put myself first means that I see how very rarely I feel like he thinks about me. It just makes me sad. Not even angry. Just sad. He would do anything I wanted, but he never wants to do anything without being asked. It just makes me feel so... insignificant.

Enough, I know. It's more than anyone would ever want to hear. I wish I could get my head out of this and focus on the things that really need attention. It's so frustrating. I have promised myself that this post will be as much as I think about it today.

I think I have gotten enough of this out.

We are talking about getting a cat, and all I can think of is that he and his ex got a dog right before they split. A lot of people get a pet right before they decide they can't make it work anymore.

I don't want a break up cat, but how do I tell him that?